A few weeks ago I started a blog about eating clean. I was hoping it would help keep me motiviated to lose weight. Unfortunately all it took was a couple bad days and I was completely off track and out of control. And now this past week has been nothing but a complete binge fest.
I'm currently about 6lbs away from once again being at my highest weight ever. I said I never wanted to go back there. And now here I am. Heavy, disgusted and hopeless.
This week I have eaten uncontrollably. Distractions proved unhelpful. I wanted food. I got food. And I ate food. And plenty of it. Sadly, most of it was unhealthy. It came in the form of cheeseburgers, salty fries and pop.
Even as I sit here, my stomach uncomfortably full, my clothes stretched tight, instead of water, I'm downing "light" fruit juice because I'm craving something sweet.
I haven't been feeling very good at all. I've been excessively tired because I haven't slept well. I'm sluggish and barely have any energy. I feel like I'm carrying around an extra 500 lbs all the time. I've had constant headaches and heartburn has been an almost daily occurance for months.
Oh there is an easy solution to fix all of this. It's called not eating the things that make me feel gross and gain weight. However, as a binge eater, that's always easier said than done.
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